disappointment

-exhausted- I find it increasingly difficult to share with the people who are once close to me. No matter how you try, they just have that stagnant perception about you. As much as you dont like it, injustice is unavoidable. Some may comment and say that we should not care about what others think of us. However, when it comes to the people that are close to you, it's a whole new dimension altogether. Honestly, I still feel a tinge of anger and disappointment.

At the beginning of the new year, I made some resolutions to ensure that I may enjoy a more balanced life. It's been one month since school started and I realised that it is tougher to cope in year2. (esp when choir pracs are 3 times a week) You have no choice but to compromise something. The responsibilities of being a student are increasingly getting overwhelming. I have been doing quite badly in my class tests and all. It's really difficult to maintain that reputation of being someone hardworking. The "teasings" are getting a lil unbearable. Everyone can make mistakes.

HOLD FAST to His Word. Lord father, i pray for your grace and mercy. I have always done relatively well, yet maybe i am not as thankful as i ought to be. Maybe it's a lesson that you would like to teach me? But Lord, your ways are higher than my ways and your thoughts higher than my thoughts. In no means can I uncover the perfect plan that you hv. Trust. Lord, i'm learning how to trust.